Could You Grant Me a Wish?

Could You Grant Me a Wish?

Please keep smiling as usual.
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"Ali told me just how pretty you'd become and how grown-up and changed, but it's one of those things that you just had to see it to believe it! Who knew you'd be so gorgeous!"

That's what my Aunt said and honestly, I hear it quite a bit, so I'm used to it. It certainly boosts my ego. But I wish I could just get rid of that nagging voice in the back of my head where I am constantly hearing where pieces of me could use improvement.

But I've heard that's one thing you can't ever get rid of, so I'll just keep thinking "you are your own worst critique" so when I get myself real down. I can bring myself back up.

I did a bunch of homework over this weekend with grandma, so I plan on keeping that up, because it felt great to be organized and accomplished. I started to fall back into the lazy pattern today and felt depressing and useless as shit.

I've found the start of all my problems. At least now I know where to start in fixing it.

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I finally see, those parts of me you'd pointed out.
The things I'd doubted that existed.

I'll work hard to piece it all together.